Memento vivere

These words lack meaning

for how can you mean what you don’t understand

but still I let this pen bleed

and shed tears that I hold back behind blood shot eyes

in the shadows lurking

my fears haunt me

my failures follow me

misery loves its company

but I will write

so that you may understand

for if you understand then I am sane

and if not

the noose around my neck grows tighter

and I’m left with a blurry vision

entertaining death not just as a notion

stirring this pot with the portion

that will lead to my demise

suicidal thoughts

sing me lullabies at night

please don’t let me fall asleep

into this maze of confusion

that are words not understood.

Tell me I’m loved

by the sun that burns my forehead

as I tread this hot desert

show me the oasis to quench my thirst

for acceptance

existence

past your subconscious

unconscious dreams

coma

comma

not a full stop

end to my story

rewritten

in words of poetry

to be sang like folklore

yet forgotten by generations

I was just a pawn

my fate only in one direction

 seeking priorities to escape the option

death lurks in the shadows of a broken spirit.